red leaves

oh no!
Fall has crept up!
Apples
Apple sauce
apple pie
apple apple apple!
CINNAMON NUTMEG ALLSPICE
Pumpkin pie
pumpkin beer
pumpkin apple pumpkin apple
melon melon birdfoot melon
I'm home
Japan was a dream.
a long, emotional, amazing, poignant, fantastic, depressing, beautiful, mental, lovely, spanktastic
DREAM
I'm ok with being home.
I love being home.
But every now and then I find myself spontaneously erupting with karate kicks
Japanese
laughing about a memory only I can remember
dancing in the rain and the fountains in the park while the little kids pass by and stare and wonder why the adult gaijin are soaking wet playing in the little pond that is meant for the fish.
yes, this was Japan
the fall hikes
the beautiful scenery.
the amazing people.
the haphazard and manicured gardens. gardens reflecting personalities
life has moved on though.
The temperature drops and I can't help but think of SNOW and wanting to get out there and play in the white beautiful marshmellowy fluff.
want to board want to ski want to play want to play want to FREEZE!
Will I see it this year?
I wonder?
Will I work in Switzerland? Australia? New Zealand? South America? go to school in England?
I feel ready to settle down. Home is so nice. But still want to adventure
American grocery stores make me want to leave the country forever
West Virginians are the same story.
I swear I will marry a Welshman and move.
Jam bands and Hummus, old Friends and Family
dolphins in the ocean
make me want to STAY!!!!!!!!!
What am I even doing in India??????
I don't know anymore.
Only Jacques the scuba diving dog can tell me what to do.